I am suppose to be working.

But I feel like hiding in the huge ass toilet to play my DS.

trauma centre rocks my socks

I think.

In everyone of us, lives an ahlian/ahbeng. And at some point of your life, they start to grow. then they die off. or so we choose to believe. Because,I think,my ah lian hasn't died. its pretty much alive and kicking in this little corner of my brian screaming @#$%%$#@. And yesterday it slipped out of my mouth when a woman refuse to let me sit down in the bus.

no im not pregnant. no im not old. no i didn't feel like fainting. But everyone else was seated! I would be doing myself injustice if i didnt grab a seat as well. that bitch decided to conveniently ignore me even after i shouted excuse me. twice.

I should welcome my inner lian with open arms. I think

Yesterday was Valentines day. Whilst many girls had a bouquet of flower warm around their arms, I had none. That was cause, I received TWO the day before! *chuckles* Thank You Bum bum for the huge bouquet of 9 roses. And to Mr Mysterious Man for the extremely cute bouquet of rose with balloon that said "kisses and hugs".

Valentines was great. i must admit it didnt start off uit as well as the initial plan of picnic didnt come thru. but I was glad that we manage to drag ourselves reluctantly to Sentosa. And God, it was packed. The sun was scorching hot as well.

First stop was at Dolphin lagoon. The performance was reallllly cute. It was a total out of the world experience when my Valentine paid for me to take a picture with the pink dolphins! They were a lil wrinkled thou. Not to mention I looked pretty fat. Well, who cares!

Next stop was to underwater world. They had a touch pool with all the different kinds of fishes. But I was too chickened out to touch any. At first. So i settled for the starfish. It looked like a piece of rock. And of course, felt like one too. I gave up on trying to touch the fishes, so i wenta wash my hands. Did I mention the water smelt terrible? Another out of the world experience was when we stepped into the world of stingrays. I FED THEM. yea....they were gooooey. Literally. Took me lots of screams and half an hour later to successfully feed the stingray.

The day ended pretty early cause we were both tired. I reached home at 8, slept till the end of valentines. But nonetheless, The day was great.


p.s. I saw a stingray shit. And i finallly know where fishes' anus are.

Flowers make me happy.

Therefore.

I is happy. Very happy.

its amazing how some f***ing arssholes can turn around on you faster than you say kissmyass. No, I should say astounding. one minute hes licking your asshole, and then another, he stabbing you in the back.

i need to widen my grasp of language. i promise myself, everyday, i shall make it a point to say jerk in many different language. For today, lets try french and spanish.

the internet calls it, farker.

i wonder why.

just the other day, my parents insisted i pack my clothes (even thou i really dont have THAT a lot) and throw away those that have been collecting dust inside the wardrobe. so i did just that. and then mom starting nagging. she said waste my money! ask you to pack clothes like throwing away money!

By then, I couldn't care less. I was busy looking at the back of my brains.

Today I saw a girl on my way to the bank. She was stepping out of the see through sliding door and there and then, caught my eye immediately. Tucked under a thick royal purple sweater and green mini-skirt, she was simply stunning. I was amazed. Her thighs were no larger then my forearms and her face so sunken in her cheekbone was protruding.

She must have noticed me looking at her, cause instantly, her gaze fell upon me. And I thought shes beautiful. I mustered up a smile and she returned it. weak, yet with a hidden strength. a strength indescribable. and all i wanted to do at that point of time was to dig a hole and hide in it. Her fair skin,thinning hair, protruding cheekbones and stick-thin legs were too much a sight for me to bear. It hit my raw spot. She is so tiny that she sways with a gust of wind.

There was a stifling sense of inadequacy that leached into my veins, little by little, poisoning me with a fear of disappointing, and of disappointment. I wanted to be like her. admiration swallowed me bit by bit, and i strolled back to the office, sat in the suddenly-uncomfortable chair thinking could I be like her?

One day....

Shoes will be banned in auditoriums where world leader speaks.

Protester throws shoe at Chinese PM in Britain

p.s. I wonder whos next?