Frustrations and Disappointments.
It was a involuntary kinda feeling. Every single cell in my body were screaming "take me take me. choose me choose me!" But all i could do was just to stand and look. Not to mention the pathetic face i must have plastered on my face throughout it all. I was finally taken in and made useful. But it must be the pathetic face. I swear. Everyone was going "itz okie itz okie" but itz not man. I felt like there was this blob of molten metal place at the back of my throat, slowly making itz way down my stomach.
Everyone must have felt useless once in awhile somewhere someplace at a certain point of time. But my brain is overloaded with signals telling me "u're useless. u're fat" Like a broken down radio repeating the same signal over and over again. It sorta pisses me off that im getting these kinda signals from my brains. But come to think of it again, is my brain trustworthy to begin with? Heh. Right now i think i should follow the path my heart sets out in front fer me. To hang on perserve and to work hard. Im not going to wallow myself in selfpity and all those shit stuff. A quote from a special someone "u'll only treasure what u really fight fer." Thank you. I'll always remember it.

I'll be like superwoman.
I'll soar higher then the birds.
(heh....)